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Lessons From Old Age - Jan 21 2024

 

Lessons From an Old Man

Jan 21 2024



Who knew we all

felt insecure,

thought we were imposters,

were sure

the spotlight, unmercifully bright, was on us

as if caught in the act.


If anything, just the goal-line moves.

The beautiful

still see their blemishes,

while the successful

could have always done better

or feel it's undeserved.

And celebrity

doesn't change a thing.


But now that I'm older

I do know this.

That everyone suffers

struggles

misunderstands.

Feels the critical gaze of others.

Is lugging baggage

they can’t let go.


How empowering to know

I’m not the only one.

That no one's normal

and average is merely a number.

That most people are so self-absorbed

they only notice themselves

and couldn't possibly judge.

Amazing

how you can hide in plain sight

      . . . even with nothing to hide.


And the child inside

you never really grow out of.

The primal drives

immaturity

temperamental fits,

the id you can't suppress.

Little kids

in grown-up bodies

who are needy as they ever were;

pouting, whining, impetuous,

seeking attention,

and most of the time scared.


Or maybe I'm wrong, and this is just me. That everyone else is a secure confident adult, and always was. Not faking it. Not being scrutinized or judged. Free of baggage. Their inner child wise beyond her years.

When I think of the man-child and unregulated id, the person who immediately comes to mind is Trump! A despicable human being. But who at least makes the rest of us (excluding, of course, his deluded and ill-informed MAGA warriors) feel so much better about ourselves.


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