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Reinvention - Oct 10 2023

 

Reinvention

Oct 10 2023



What I didn’t know

was that all the cool people

who intimidated me

and seemed so at ease with themselves

   —  the retro hipsters

and trendy fashionistas,

the bohemians and artists

and earnest activists   —

who seemed born

to cosmopolitan life

were hardly that.

Despite the purple hair

and fluid sexuality,

they came, same as me

from small towns

in distant hinterlands;

drawn to the city

but in the beginning

as awkward as me

in the great metropolis

that never sleeps.


Came from modest homes

and buttoned-down folks

their teenage selves

found so embarrassing;

good Republicans,

who fuss over lawns

and unsparingly grouse 

about gay lovers,

welfare mothers,

the price of ground chuck.


Young people

who somehow managed to reinvent themselves;

their small-town alter egos

neatly repressed

behind a sheen of urban cool.


Or perhaps they were always that way,

and the city

is a magnet

where all the outcasts and non-conformists,

ther free-thinkers

who never fit in,

and the creatives

who live for their art

accumulate;

drawn to its pole

by some invisible force

that seeks them out.

Who finally find “their people”

among the millions here.


While the rest stay

and lead conventional lives

in podunk towns

in Kansas and North Dakota

upstate New York.


How uplifting to think

that people can choose who they are

and how to be.


Or is it destiny?

So it seems it was with me;

returning home

after all,

still overwhelmed

by the big brash metropolis.

A small fish

in a small pond

who is what he is;

no amount of reinvention

could make me what I'm not.


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